OMG that makes me want to cry. That is me. Me 20 years from now. I can't begin to tell my story. It is all here at PC for the taking anyway. But your story is so totally my life. 18 years of hell. Wondering do I go or do I stay. People saying go, run, leave, and him saying I'll stop, I'll do better, him even doing bettter but going back to the same ole crap.

I am seriously considering leaving. More serious then ever before. Your story has given me hope instead of fear about the future. Thank you so much for sharing. You are a very brave lady. I hope one day to have as much courage as you have had.