Dear T,

This week has been VERY hard for me. I keep thinking about how we ended the session, and I get scared to start from there!!! I don't know why I said what I did. I'm NOT that young girl anymore, so why do I still have those feelings? They're normal for back then, not NOW.

I'm so afraid that something will happen and I won't have my session this week. I feel it and I'm anxious. Maybe I'm just setting myself up so I won't be disappointed. If you get the flu, or I have to go out-of-town, it will be about 3 weeks! I can't go so long with these feelings. I just can't! On the one hand, I'm all right and keeping busy painting and writing. On the other hand, I'm in misery and need to see you so badly. I should be over these issues already. Shouldn't I?

Love,
rainbow