Alright. So after a very long bout of being a loner, I finally have the opportunity of friendship opening up with my college housemates and I can't deal. It seems like being around people for a prolonged period of time drains me quickly..even if I enjoy their company. I've learned to be cheery and positive and jokey around others but I can't keep that up too long. I get tired and sad and stare off in space in strange ways and I prefer they don't see that. I either say stupid things or get uncomfortably quiet or awkward when I hit my limit with being around people (which is kinda short). But I also have this desire for a deep connection with another person that my short social fuse does not permit. When people see the awkward sad person i really am I know I'll lose them so i try to maintain some distance...I have a love hate relationship with the loner lifestyle but after years of it I'm comfortable with it. ugh...i don't know..