This too shall pass, I know it will.

I'm rocking and rolling with really uncomfortable symptoms. I'm wiped out exhausted, stressed, triggered. Short on sleep.

What I do know: this too shall pass, this is time to tend to basics such as food water rest distraction safety sleep, I have a psych appointment Monday and a therapist appointment Tuesday, I can call crisis services if I need to, I don't have to go anywhere tonight or tomorrow, I have a fun movie to watch and entertaining books.

I feel really floaty, falling out the left side of my body, and a new one to me: I found myself earlier today concerned that my entire being would leak out my knees.

Amidst all this I'm relatively stable, I do know what is going on, I know this will pass, I just feel like hell right now.

Recent stresses: needing to call police because of domestic violence next door, my birthday, season changes, new neighbors elsewhere being noisy and different, school shootings in news, socializing tons more which is both good but triggering this time, friend hospitalized, ongoing poverty, increase in physical symptoms.

Oh and perimenopause. So.....yeah.



Writing this is somewhat of a test, to show myself that I can write things down and survive. I feel vulnerable, yet I am safe in so many ways.

I am not bad. If I am floating, that can be okay, as long as I am safe. I can watch a fun movie now with teddy bear and enjoy some distraction. A soak in a hot bath sounds really good too.

All of you out there, all of us, I'm grateful to us all. We keep on keepin' on.