I have been obsessed with this guy for 2 years. We've been dating. We were bf/gf back in August and then he broke up with me in Oct. Said my accusations and meaness were to blame. I tend to get very nasty and hit below the belt in texts and verbally when I feel wronged and that person wont recognize their part. My accusations have been dead on almost everytime though. He talks to his ex on and off and lies about it and then he slept with her back in July. He's very indecisive and blames everything on me and others with everything he goes through. Nothing is his fault. But with me, I have taken it to extremes. I look up his cell phone account to track his calls. Its like I am addicted to him. He has made it clear he only wants friendship..with benefits..and nothing more (for the time being). Yet I just found out he's talking to his ex again. I know I need to get away. This year has been hell and I am pregnant now too. He doesn't want it. I do. I lied to him and said I would get an abortion but that was just to keep him near me. It's insane. He is a jerk but yet I have turned into this psyco nuttbag over him. I will end up dead, in jail or a mental health place again if I keep messing with him. He uses me, takes advantage of the way I feel. He leads me on when he's in a good mood, telling me things I want to hear. Then the next day he over reacts to something I say and we fight like cats and dogs. Everyday! It's crazy. I have never acted this way to anyone before. I feel like hurting myself and that woman he keeps talking to. I have threatened her over and over again. I don't know how to let go and move on. I need to focus on my baby and taking care of myself but he is on my mind 24/7. Litterally. How do I move on? I have become a paranoid nutt because of this idiot. I am a fool, I know I need to get away, but how?? I am going insane with these emotions always running so high.