So glad you got a chance to talk it through.

Last night I had a similar thing hit. Someone who doesn't understand me, doesn't know me, has been suggesting over and over that I get something. I've been like in a haze during this because the focus was on the possible outer threat to my safety that was happening, that his suggestion would help.

But then last night someone who knows me heard what had been being discussed, and reminded me why it is not wise for me to do this, was like a really bright painful light lit up in my whole being, of awareness, of reality.