If i could leave home i would. and i dont want people to think he is some horrible person, He can be so sweet and protective too.. He just has these moments where he isnt my brother and turns into someone else.

I think Mum gets it better than Dad, So she lets me go out when i need to and she understands i struggle being at home sometimes, and cannot deal with him.

It's hard to explain he hasn't hit me hard enough or used a closed fist on me for a long time, now days its more of just poking me in the arm for ages hard, or pushing me around... Compared to alot of people it's nothing, so i feel bad for complaining you know?

And well i just think he might have some mental illness or something. you know, and well if i can try get him help it might make him happier and less easy to become angry