Thank you everyone for your support and suggestions! I truly appreciate it!

Sorry that I have not tended to my thread, I went ahead and admitted myself in the hospital on Friday. It certainly wasn't a pleasant experience, but I gained two things; I have an appointment with the local mental health center, and I also gained a lot of insight into the struggle of others. It made me appreciate that I do still maintain my sanity, and that my issues are far less complex and easier to cope with than many mental health issues.

I in no way meant to diminish the issues of others, and I apologize if it seemed as such, I try my best to recognize that no matter how minute or how large the issue at hand it is not necessarily the issue, but how the individual perceives and copes with the issue.

Not to sound whiny, but I also gained a further distaste for medical professionals. The doctor spent a grand total of two minutes with me, a minute the day after I was admitted, and a minute to tell me I was being discharged. It was quite discouraging that he would not allow me to talk during that time, and would not address any of my concerns. I did, however, come across a very caring and compassionate nurse who understood my perspective and offered me a great self help book, which I am now reading. It also further solidified for me that I cannot make connections to people, I spent the entire time alone and reading. When I attempted to talk and play games with the other patients on the ward I was quickly turned away or simply ignored. I will not let that define me, I know I am a decent person who is worthy of human interaction, but it certainly still hurts.

I am going to have to really challenge myself and force myself to attend support groups. Without the veil of anonymity of the internet it will be difficult, but my innate distrust for people isn't protecting me any longer, it only serves to further alienate me.