Perhaps now that things are a bit calmer,
would you consider some form of meditation
along with the herbal medication to help with the anxiety?
The need is to wean off of our old outdated survival tools (only the defective ones that is),
to learn new techniques and methods of dealing with "life on life's terms".
It seems that the only hope for me, was to give up hope.

"Hope and fear come from feeling that we lack something;
they come from a sense of poverty.
We can't simply relax with ourselves.
We hold onto hope, and hope robs us of the present moment.
We feel that someone else knows what's going on,
but there's something missing in us,
and therefore something is lacking in our world."