Purpledaisy, things are going to be different, but they can be different in a very positive way.

You need to associate yourself, in my view, with a group of people in a small church (of your choice, of course) and get interested in some of the things these people do. It's a growing process and you will learn how to do the things you feel that you just "aren't that kind of person" in trying.

Fear is really the only thing we have to fear in life. Nothing is better for the soul than giving it some positive experience with those who know what positive things can do for us.

Pep talk? Yes, in a way, but it's the real truth, too. Put the negative things in a bag and toss them in the river. Read books that are positive self-help things, like
"Around the Year With Emmet Fox" or "Keep It Simple" or "Forgiving and Moving on".

In my view, you might wish to make your theme for living through the next few months during the adjustment period "Dusting Off and Moving To The Positive Side".

Take care.