Dear T,

Did you read what I wrote above ? Your attitude today was not at all as I expected but almost as bad as I expected anyway so no real difference .

I never did get around to reading it to you though I did print it out and bring it to session. It seems you can't really take my rage with equanimity after all though I suppose you've been much more accepting of it than anyone else I've seen.

I'm not sure about today. At least I'm still in therapy so that's got to be something to feel positive about. Well actually yeah, I admit I did feel just a little bit grateful to you after session, but managed to stifle that feeling pretty quickly. Just writing it here so I can remind myself in future. Not for you to know about