This is how she was for sure. Scared of being alone despite how much I tried to make her feel secure and that I genuinly loved her and wanted to have a future together.

She always stated "she wasnt the women she wanted to be, but glad she isnt the women she used to be"

She knows he has issues and admits she has issues. I know she wants to change but cant. She slowly is but still makes bad decisions that she cant explain why she does.

I will wait till maybe one day she does. The unknown of if and when is the scary part. That is why I dont want to move on adn dont have the desire too.