Its really hard to explain exactly what I mean...I am not good at explaining things.
I want to go to college, not university, so I have to pick something to study. I really want to go to school to study nutrition, it's something I am interested in and have been learning about on my own for a couple years now, especially food allergies/sensitivities because I have some myself and I like to help people.
The only thing is, I have wanted to go back to school to study like 3 different things over the years. I get one idea in my head and I am set on it...then lose interest. Then I want to do something else and it starts again and then...not interested anymore. I don't want to go to school and then decide I am not interested anymore.
Then there's the fact that I really don't believe I am smart enough to go back to school. I don't have the greatest attention span at all. I don't want to spend all that money to fail.
I am a binge eater. Ilost 75 lbs after my daughter was born (she is now almost 3) and about the time she turned 1, I started binge eating. I am addicted to food. So I feel like I physically cannot stop myself...and every day is the same....I try as hard as I can but I fail. So I feel trapped in the sense that I hate my job, I'm too chicken **** to get a new one because of my social anxiety, and I don't know what I want to go to school for. I will never lose the last 30lbs I need to lose because I can't stop stuffing my face. I would even be happy to maintain at this point and just stop gaining.

Oh and I really hate my job.My boss yells at me, she makes me feel like an idiot and that I don't know how to do my job. I work my *** off, do the best I can but it's never enough because there is always SOMETHING that either I didn't do, or did wrong and that's all that matters. I cried one day last week because she yelled at me for a mistake that I had already made before (I seriously have the WORST memory)
She is really just a verbally abusive person. I feel like I am stuck in this job because I can't find a better one.