I have become adept at the techniques you say, maybe it's time for a break, get more involved in life. But why don't I feel better. And do you, after all this time not realize how alone I am? Please don't send me packing until I've made more progress getting more together in my life. so you are not my only support...so the loneliness between sessions isn't so terrible.
I feel like you are trying to put a 'fixed' stamp on my forehead even though I don't feel better. Maybe it makes you feel better. Or you sensed the transference I have been so careful to try and hide and you want to be rid of me. That look of sadness that came across my face when you spoke of your family. I pushed it away quickly enough, I thought, but you are a professional. You saw it. Then the next session...the above happens. And I am in fear that next session will be the last and I will be out there completely alone. I am afraid that we have been on different wavelengths now and maybe we weren't connecting at all - for all of this time. I want to fix it. I don't know how.