I think I know why this was hard to answer Speed. I used to really really look up to a famous environmental scientist, to the point I always wished he was my dad, or that I had a dad like that. I have never been interested in celeberties, but was really extremely taken with this man and what I *thought* he was. It was someone I grew up watching on TV and documentaries since I was a young child. In my mind simply great! Perfect, would never hurt anyone. Of course no one is perfect.

A movie about his life came out a few years back. Turned out he had choosen to abandon his wife and children over his career. It was not pretty at all. Ouch! My own father abandoned us too. So lesson learnt you never know if you would want to emulate someone else. You don't know what that might entail. Whatever his reasons were, or my fathers.. That is not something I want to emulate in my own life.

So I will stick to me, I can live with that. At least I do know who I am, I have my own crosses to bear like everyone else, but I know what they are and why they are there.