Hey. I'm new here, and yours was the first post I read. I have been picking at my zits since I was in my teens, and I am almost 50. Suffice to say it's bad and has driven me to the brink at times. I've been told by psychiatrists it's a form of my OCD called Body Dysmorphic Disorder where you're obsessed with a minor or perceived bodily flaw (usually hair, face, skin, or breasts) about which you then have compulsions. It's been the bane of my existence, and my hair is the mane of my existence. I fuss over it like nobody's business, and even when it looks perfect, I stress over it to the point of a near nervous breakdown. My doctors disagree as to whether this body dysmorphia/ocd exists as part of depression/anxiety or as part of bipolar disorder, but it doesn't really matter to me. It exists and drives me insane. I too thought your post could have been mine. The first step for me was clearing up my skin; the second step was getting meds that settled my anxiety about it. Check out body dysmorphic disorder too and see if it fits for you. I find it helpful to assign a definition to what I am enduring. It helps me process it and make sense of it a bit better. All the best to you!!!