Usually people that I just meet- For My Sakes and Safety I need to figure them out first--- Sure this is done by talking, but if I am first meeting them, I want to know more about them......

So i would either excuse myself if needed, or tell them I was ok and probably make a joke about something as I do.....

sorry to be the specious type.

But I have told a few co-workers of my own issues, and some struggles--- They still talk to me, and joke around-- but this is after I have known them for years--

And it is the same- As with some co-workers I do not say anything to, due to- they don't care, if they have not cared to get to know me, just me as me... a person--- then why expose myself to the harsh judgement from a stranger (not all people are that smart sorry to say)?
let alone, some one that perhaps may do the worse that would trigger me a little and use it against me in some way? I sort of don't feel as if right now, in my life- i can take that risk.