NO IT IS NOT. It is not your fault. The man who raped me did so for 9 months. I even went back to him repeatedly. But every time I was manipulated, begged him to stop, cried, and said no I don't know how many times.

That doesn't mean I deserve what I got. It doesn't make me guility because I returned. Love is a crazy thing. Controlling someone else is an even crazier thing.

If you could have tried harder you would have, if you could have made him stop you would have. Being abused makes it harder and adds an extra element of fear. You were not stupid you are young and do not have the mental development as of yet to process things quickly, say stop, get away from the abuse and stop this from happening all at the same time. That is not to say you are dumb that is saying as a young person you brain has not developed enough to process the amount of things that were taking place at the moment.

It was not your fault.