i felt the exact same way when I was going to delete my account. i thought that the whole group hated me after how I acted.

trust me, and please listen... this group doesn't work that way.

I know for me all I needed was someone to tell me that it was ok.

IT IS OK. WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES. you do not have to be a 'functioning' member.

half the time when I am on here, I am not functioning. that's why I am on here.

James is a good guy.... There is no way he would hold a grudge. trust me on that.

WE ALL MAKE MISTAKES, AND IF I CAN RECOVER AFTER ATTACKING SOMEONE ON THIS BOARD.... You can recover too.

IT IS OK. We have a mental illness... all of us do. We all make mistakes.

I know how much of a spin it can put on us when we think that we totally screwed up saying something.

it can really hurt and send us into a panic.

just breathe and calm down.