I'm happy. I've been in therapy for more than 3 months now. It's funny, because even though I'm happy. I'm still dealing with the eating disorder and trauma, etc. But life just gets better from here. I still don't know if I trust my therapist. We started the real trauma work, meaning that I had to relax & go into my head. No such luck! I'm one of those people who get more tense when they're supposed to relax. It's really scary for me. Idk how I'm ever going to go down that hallway...!

I feel like this is the treasure box though. This is where all my anxiety, panic, codependency, eating issues, everything is coming from here. So I've got to unlock it, little by little. I just don't know when I'm going to be ready to do it. I really want to. I know I'm not going to be done therapy any time soon, but it would move a lot faster if I got over this hump.