Okay so we all know that bipolar is considered a disability and there are reasons for that.

It's not because we're lacking intelligance or creativity.

It's not because we are physically incapable.

It's because our minds go haywire and we're not able to function in the way that the rest of society requires.

Maybe in the grand scheme of things, if society were different, then no, it wouldn't be a disability. But all of the world isn't going to suddenly turn around and change it's mind on how people "should" function. It will take a graet overhaul and that is not something that happens easily.

So... until then, fine, we have a disability.

So, do you notice you make a lot of mistakes? I think this is why it's a disabilty. I make mistakes because I can't focus. I make mistakes because I can't remember things. I make mistakes because my thoughts are racing. I make mistakes because my moods are swinging wildly. I make a ton of mistakes, and I make more mistakes than a "non-bipolar" person. And it's a direct result of symptom of my bipolar.

I work my butt off trying to keep this from happening. But it happens. And then I get in trouble, because the non-bipolar people around me want me to function like a non-bipolar person, too....

Does this happen only to me? Or is this everyone? I am feeling like the alien in the room out here and I know I'm a mess. I know I am not "put together" and "professional" looking enoug. I know I make a lot of mistakes! But I can't promise you that I can make that stop!

How do I deal with this with people who don't get it??? I am so frustrated and I don't want to be an alien. I just want people to see me as a person with a disability. I'm fine with that. I would rather be a person with a disability than considered the lazy mistake maker who just doesn't do what she's supposed to.

Do you see what I mean???