Thanks everyone.

The thing I think some don't see here... is that when people call me "lazy" they mean that I do these things on purpose.

Not that I'm flawed. Having a flaw and doing things on purpose is different.

I am too lazy to notice that there is a meeting, so I forget to put the packets together for it. On purpose.

I don't care about the projects I am given, so I don't pay attention to deadlines or doing them correctly. On purpose.

I would much, much rather be seen as someone to is trying very hard despite having a disability, vs. that lazy girl who just doesn't care.

I have been accused of this my whole life. The lazy, manipulative, lying, spoiled child. I hate it! I am not lazy, I struggle. I am not manipulative! If I say I don't feel well it's not because I want pitty. If I say I'm suicidal or self-harming, it's not being I want attention! I'm not lying, I really do have an illness! I'm not spoiled, I was just an only child and sure, I had a lot of toys, but I bought my own car when I was 16, I paid for my own gas, I paid for my own schooling, I don't put others last so I can come first!

No one will help me or give me a break ever... I feel like I'm the world's enemy but I'm just trying to get by....