i have no desire for life anymore other then the fact that i have three wonderfull kids i have nothing in this world no true friends not even my husband.sometimes i wonder why im even still on this earth...anyways for about 6 months i have been in a very bad funk i feel like my life is slipping out of control and i cant do nothing to stop it.. and here lately i cant even think straight like everything is a blur,my mind spinning in so many different directions..i will admit i have thought about endin my life so that my husband can find someone to make him happy.we have been married almost 12 years we have never really had much comunication between us but lately everything is gone... or so it seems i have tried talking to my husband and explainin i need affection hell i dont even feel like a woman anymore he treats me like he haves no desire for me he will not listen to me if i try talking to him about anything important or not he answers me then says "huh" i didnt hear you.he is not my friend a friend is someone who is there for you i have thought about conseling but i cant really afford it and i have no insurance but everyday is a struggle anymore i dont want to go out of my house. i hate to see the sun rise as it means another day of pain and suffering like i said i have no desire for life anymore...can anyone tell me if this is what it feels like before u go insane????i know suicide is not the ansewr but it sure seems brighter then the life im living today