You have to want to get better. People can tell you until you are blue in the face that you have an eating disorder, but no one can do anything about it except for you. Good luck to you with whatever you decide to do. There are consequences to every choice we make, good and bad. From experience, I can tell you that there are more bad ones for continuing on this path. Hopefully you will choose to make changes that will benefit your body instead of harming. It's up to you either way. Good luck to you.