T - Well, I have several draft emails saved from yesterday and today. I can't bring myself to send them to you. I feel so weak for not being able to deal with things right now...and I'm terrified of showing you that weakness. Letting others see my weaknesses has never turned out well. Maybe I'll condense my draft emails in to one short, coherent one, and send it. Maybe I'll just keep typing drafts. I wish I had the courage to tell you how much I'm struggling right now. I wish one of your other clients would cancel their appointment this week, so that I could meet with you. The scheduled phone call this Friday isn't going to be enough.