You did everything in your power and made all the decisions that you saw as right in that moment.

I'm not normally religious, but you have to let go of that guilt and let God take some of your burden. You can't take all of the blame for his death because he was capable of making his own decisions. YES! Heroin is an awful drug. You know what, though? You're using your child's life as a motivation to help save others who are in your predicament. Jason may not be here but he is praising the Lord because you're taking action to save people who fall for this devastating drug. If you save one person through your work, you're showing Jason that mama's got a kick and she's honored his memory.

I don't think Jason thought he was going to die. I don't think he intended to put you or your husband through pain. He is your child and should have left after you. However, he didn't and now you have the opportunity to go through your grievances and show him how strong you really are.

Your underlying desire to live has brought forth new opportunity.

I've been keeping track of your threads even though I haven't really posted in them. I finally have something worth contributing.