I don't know what to say except I'm here I have major mom guilt, people always tell me all this is not my fault. But I hear you cuz we brought them inthe world, and they had to grow up with us as bp moms, and our black hole depressions. Do you pray? I think you do, could you hand this guilt over to God, ask for help with it? Please fight the black hole. I don't feel well today, not sure if it's the flu or depression or what, but I'm hiding in my bed and must get to work still. I'm forcing positive affirmations in my mind, cuz i'm mean to myself. Trying hard to tell myself I can do this.


And, hey, sometimes I have to take a break from here. I get too attached and enmeshed. And sometimes I can't read all the threads, and I'll try to avoid ones that might really upset me, just cuz I can't handle it. Sometimes I can, sometimes I can't.