I don't know if this is something I should watch or not.

I woke up this morning after sleeping in not feeling like getting up. I wanted to go back to bed to just dream. I wanted to stay under the covers and just not think of anything but my distractions of dreams. I wanted to stare at the wall. I wanted to be nowhere at all. I succeeded at this until about noon, when my body kept making me get up to pee so I called a friend to go have lunch at Big Boy. I ended up calling another friend in the interim and felt some better by the time my other friend met me at the restaurant. I know its a bleak day out weatherwise, but I couldn't see that when I woke up. It was a nice conversation, and I don't feel sad, really, just I want to melt into nothingness. I can't, however, as I'm too awake. I wish I could write more, or something. My friend I talked to on the phone is always good at entertaining me. I don't recall feeling bad about anything in particular. I just don't want to do much. But here I am typing away on the board so that counts for something I guess. That's if this post gets read and doesn't fall onto page 2 before... *grumble grumble*....