((everyone)) It sucks when people view us as "lazy". I also have ADHD, which causes me to make a lot of stupid mistakes. I've literally lost hundreds of points in math classes over the years thanks to careless errors in arithmetic. And even in conversations, I sometimes say the dumbest things. This drives my social anxiety. I hate it. I wish that I could just count on my brain to be reliable.
I know what you mean about disclosure backfiring on you. I got behind in my classes last semester because I was distracted from my ADHD (I had stopped taking my wellbutrin, which helps me focus) and was also running a bit manic. Once things calmed down and I got back on the wellbutrin, I did everything I could to catch up in my classes. I thought that I could be honest with my experimental psych professor; after all, he's a psychologist. Telling him that I have bipolar and ADHD was a big mistake. He started bullying me during the one-on-one meetings we had to have to plan our final project; he actually made me cry twice. I talked to my advisor and my TA about it, and they convinced him to stop treating me so poorly. But he got his way in the end; I got a C in the course. Despite the fact that I scored well above average on all of the exams. He didn't start being nasty to me until I disclosed my diagnoses.
Ugh. It's just so frustrating that people don't understand!
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