i have never seen a psychiatrist, but recently i feel like to talk to someone , unfortunately ,i cant tell it t anyone .
you see am 17 , and i come from a very religious family , i was always the good girl ,good manners , great grades and everything , but since we moved to Texas i saw people my age doing all kinds of things.
something in me just wanted to try the things. so i did ..i started making out with this guy that i thought was cute , and things kind of got awkward since he is a family friend and i see him alot but i liked him because couldn't have him . from making out to second base to oral sex (just on him ) .. my first .. i didn't hate but i love it either ..
am a junior in high school , my parents have high expectations for me ..really high i don't want to mess up my future for a good kisser .. but then again i really cant stop thinking about him .. how can i go back to my old self nerdy old me ?
i want to make it to Cornell university and then medical school .. i need help