I was in a relationship for over two years. I loved this guy with everything I had. My heart and soul belonged to him, but shortly after encountering some of his financial issues and other issues that could not easily be resolved, I cheated on him. I blame this on my disorder--schizophrenia disorder--for I was hearing voices at the time and could not think clearly. All in all, we recently separated and he now has a new girlfriend. However, I tried to explain my disorder to him and win him back, but it's was a "no go". He has listened to me a little, but is not willing to give our relationship another try due to his new relationship. I am bummed because I care a lot about him and am finding that I compare every new lover to him. It is extremely difficult for me to move on, especially since I found out about my new disorder. Plus, my old lover isn't so terrified of my disorder as I assume other guys will be, so I feel stuck. I feel stuck on him--my past lover--because I love him with all my heart, and I don't think I could find someone else as accepting as he. Please comment.