I feel so empty, I feel self-hatred. Unfortunately, I'm not able to be in a healthy relationship with others because of what I am. I was feeling better for a few minutes, only to plunge to the depths of despair. I feel so enraged. Is it so crazy not to want to be alone with this? I need to push everyone away because when I am like this it is easy for me to get hurt. I need to push you away. I have to push you away. I can't see you ever again.
It's too painful.

Antimatter

P.S: See you tomorrow at 4.