I am not sure what to think in such condition where all suppressed memories are hurting but the past is starting to bug me a lot.

When I was in school and high-school my parents never let me go on school trip or any type of trip. They also used to decide where to play and how many blocks to cross. I used to get punished for coming home late which is 5pm as per their deadline. I also had restriction of not meeting my relatives (like uncle,aunt and some others) without their permission, even to date they argue.

Now I see back in past, I feel I missed some fun in life. All of my friends enjoyed that moment but I didn't.

My parents never let me drive bike because they used to think i would get killed while driving bike. I never had money of my own during high-school so i couldn't buy one for myself.

They never let me buy clothes with my own choice, they used to take me to store and force what they like and used to pay. Never had pocket-money and never gave me money to spend or buy.

After graduation, when I checked the world around me, I realized I was alone and cut from their chains but still never had enough money to travel, or spend and barely managed to work on salary. I feel I can't even enjoy life as I am supposed to. They even dictate things by telling me to get married and have kids and they want to decide which girl to marry. They want to dictate everything in life and i can't refute because I don't have much money in pocket.

When I discussed this regret of past, they said " you're all your own and this is your problem". When I discuss with friends or family, instead of saying something positive, they just give smile and say nothing.

I know I should move away from them but low money and lack of jobs in the city makes me stick with them. I am however working enough to have some savings which may work in future for moving away. But till then parents are bugging on a lot and moving on becomes even harder.

How to deal with past with regret like this?