Thanks everyone. I've not been doing so great the last month or so, I've made bad choices and not really cared if they put me in danger or not. I've lost my way a bit and needed guidance. So after a bad weekend I went to see my T to tell all the latest saga in this mess. At least I my had my T, right? T said we needed to talk and I had choices to make. We didn't talk about anything that was bothering me this week or lately,but I needed to. So I have 3 choices. I don't like those 3 choices so that is it, my T is not the right therapist for me and we should schedule a termination date. I don't see them as choices at all, either I stay, do what the therapist wants and end up resenting the T or I go and lose the support I've had for two years. I don't want my T to throw me away, but it looks like that's it. I'm feeling vulnerable.and fragile and to have this happen has really thrown me. I'm not doing termination. I'd rather just never go back