aaww, Faraway tree, it's really awful--what this bipolar disorder does to us, out of the blue. I'm so sorry ... and you were so close to making the party too.
It's just horrible, I know that feeling, it's kind of like a cold fog that flows over me--I can't see what I was focused on doing, I lose my bearings and am lost, it's all I can do just to get home or somewhere safe. I'm in a rotten state ... guilty, angry, confused. If suddenly something or someone blasts into my path, starts making demands or judgments

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. I hope tomorrow's a better day.
* gentle hugs *
Roadie