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Well I messed up today. His ex called me back after I threatened her again. That's the only way I can get her to call me back. But she confirmed he was running a game on us both again. We talked for an hour and she said she was done with it all. Instead she took what I said and called and told him a bunch of untruths that I never said or did to get him to want nothing to do with me. So I flipped out defending myself and called him over and over and over again begging him literally to not walk away and be with her. What is wrong with me? I even told him I'm willing to accept her in his life as whatever as long as I don't lose him and he's honest about everything with her. He agreed but it's not what I want. I want her gone!! I need to seek major help I think. This is way bad that I lowered myself to this. I feel like I love him ad can't imagine him with another. And even though he was caught, he still denied it all and said she was lying but I know she wasn't. About any of it. What is wrong with me? Why do I do this? It's not dependency cause he doesn't do anything for me at all. He's not even supportive in any way. I guess I'm hung up on what used to be and can't understand why I was never enough. and I'm still not. And never will be I'm sure.
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