You're welcome! It's a big challenge speed, I'm not sure how things should work to get you in a better state, but I think having as much knowledge about everything you can, will not hurt. I think is awesome that you're here, because we also see the world as you do. We may not have experienced this kind of irreplaceable loss, but we are definitely able to connect with you in other ways. I don't know much about meds but I found google is my best friend. What you don't know, search, you're bound to find something that can help!