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Originally Posted by honeybee777
I think we as HPD, don't necessary PURSUE desires, but we allow ourselves to be caught up in desires in which are set before us. As we have many admirers, those that are willing to do anything to perhaps make us belong to them, by saying what we want to hear or doing things to make us feel wanted, desired, and loved, we....for the moment...will allow ourselves to picture our life with that person and feel that we "love" them and that IF ONLY we could be with that person instead of the one we are with that we would be finally truly happy.
But when we get that other person, we find that we see their faults we could not see before, therfore we allow ourselves to start fantasizing about yet another admirer and the cycle continues....
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Being an outside observer, I can say that this is very true and a very accurate statement about the cycles you go through, at least you personally I don't know about the rest of the HPD people.
Another thing that I note about you is that you have a hard time making a clean break from people, even the ones that have wronged you. This is just my analysis but I feel like it's because you like to keep your prospects alive regardless of whether they are good for you or not. If at any point they've been one to give you the attention, admiration and focus that you so crave, they will forever remain on your "prospects list". amirite? It's aggravating sometimes to see this, being a person that can actually cut off people at some point and, being bpd, you expect your friends to "cut off" the ones you choose to but then I'm digressing about myself here
Kind of leads into a bit of tension
Anyway. dunno if this helps but there it is.