Asia, I once told my T that when he talking about grieving and acceptance, it felt to me as if he were telling me to pick up something off the floor ten feet behind me, without backing, turning around, or bending over. He said, "Good to know." So, I don't have any good answers, although, I will say that as time has progressed and he and I address more of my childhood stuff, the anger and the pain have eased off. Still there, but not as intense. Maybe it's just a matter of time?