Thank you very much for responding! I am 24 years old and I don't go to my mother's church. I believe differently than her, and she thinks that I am not saved if I do. Grant it I'm not the model christian but I try. I feel she is not very understanding to the condition I'm going through so I try not to speak about it around her.
I live in a pretty rural area n it's kind of hard to find a therapist. I don't have insurance n we are barely making it paycheck to paycheck.
I think I actually might have had this when I was younger because I was kind of weird about germs but not too bad. It def has gotten worse about religion. I hate thinking derogatory thoughts about God and just wish they would go away...sometimes it's easy, but other times it does really trouble me.