I had a good day, but on the way home things started going south and arrived home quite irritable...

I bought the remainder of Jordan's stationary, only to realize I left without withdrawing any cash, without cigarettes as well as without the doll clothes she asked for. Needed money to buy my bus ticket (which I luckily borrowed from a friend) and to pay her driver who transports her to and from school, was supposed to pay the guy a few days ago...

I get home only to make a mess of covering her books, which pushes me into a frenzy because it's a simple task that I've never mastered, even with pre-cut materials, so of course I feel like an idiot.

Frustration and intense hunger pangs cause me to give up and have supper before I faint or break somethings.... I've eaten, mum finished her books for me, but my stomach still hurts like hell!

My sister whom I haven't spoken to in weeks texted me today to ask if I was "ok now" or do I still want us to remain seperated.... Me thinking this was a chance for her to validate the reasons that led me to lash out at her, and acknowledge her part in it..... well let's just say I was sorely mistaken, the little twit changed the topic to would I be interested in joining her for 'ladies night' like.... W T F!!!!!! that cut really deep, I don't get my family, at this point finding out I was adopted would answer aLOT of questions....

I have 2 cigarettes and it's only 8pm, ugh I know it sounds stupid but it's a ****** evening indeed!

On the upside, I love my new phone, only cost HALF my paycheck, so yeah extra broke this month!

On the verge of tears and can't even say why.... it's just a ****** evening all around.

Just venting