I can't keep up with work while I'm feeling this depression. I'm
constantly unable to concentrate, so I'm trying my best to just
get by without anyone noticing that I'm barely able to get my work
done. What's worse is that after sleeping, my commute and work, I
have about 4 hours a day to myself and my family (maybe 5). It
just starts to get to the point where I always want to finish the
week so I can relax and do things for myself on the weekend. But
then I don't bother doing anything around the apartment to help
out. I'm lucky my wife is tolerant of me.

I guess this is what everyone feels, so I need to accept it. I can't change the situation right now because of my daughter's illness and our need for the money.

It also makes me mad when I know other managers in my department
work on weekends and nights. I can't handle doing that, so I feel
left behind. I'm like the least of all the managers I guess as a
result. But then again, when I get home, I've already put in 13-14
hours including my commute.