Thank you so much Open Eyes thank you for the long post,
I almost knew what you would say as i am intellectually able to figure it out, i just never could explain it verbally and have it validated by someone else.I am able to do it in writing now, it helped so much just to write itdown, but i still know i have to keep it between my therapist and me. i certainly can not bring it up with my mother, out of curtesy for her feelings, the problem was about my sister who comitted suicide, and was wondering if it is normal to want to talk about it, but i know in my heart i love my mother too much to put the questions on the table because of the pain on her part. it's been since 1987, seems so long ago, but again it seems like today!thank you so much!!!!!