Hi Indigo ~ I really have to agree with Roadie. I know how it feels to be the outcast, and I don't particularly like "people" out there either. I have a hard tiime with the general public. I haven't made friends easily in years ~ it's a trust thing for me because I've been betrayed so many times.

But I do think that therapy would be MOST beneficial for you. I've been thru therapy, and have been in and out of it most of my adult life. I can't tell you how much it has helped me. And yes it can be scary, especially when you delve into the deep dark recesses of the past -- the things you DON'T want to talk about. Those things are scary and painful. But they are very necessary to talk about and air out -- they have to come out and really discuss them in order to get rid of them so they can never hurt you again. After you've gone thru them and reduced their importance, they don't have the power they once had. You find that they were just a "mere incidence" that cannot hurt you anymore and they're now buried and done. That's the importance of therapy -- totally going thru every little thing that has tormented you for years -- the baggage you've been carrying around on your shoulders. You cannot keep carrying this stuff or it will knock you to your knees.

So please think about therapy, PLEASE? For you, it's crucial. Life is wonderful - it's a gift. And we need to treat it as such cause we only go around once and it goes awfully fast!! God bless and please take care. Hugs, Lee