been very up and down today, stressed at email from architect, happy I sorted it out, stressed email stopped working and had coursework to send in for deadline, happy I fixed it and sent it, ecstatic I passed, stressed I fell out my wheelchair, led to hopeless that I am on my own, led to really not wanting to be here and 'what's the point of carrying on' to ok my gerbils all came for a snuggle, to exhausted so came to bed, took my pain meds and put my electric under blanket on , so now am warm with cope able pain and relaxed.