I am a little more struggling with it today. I go from at peace, to having a little bit of bitterness. I guess its somedays are better than others.

I just dont get how someone can say they love you and I KNOW she did, have so much disrespect for feelings and hurt me that bad. She went from one extreme to the next. Talking about we would make a beautiful family and would love to see me as a father, to 1 week later meeting a guy that she planned on meeting while she told me these things, then leaving me as soon as met him and now she is with him. There is even a 2 year old involved who I loved like my own. She may have thought I would not have found out. Its a small town.

I know she is very screwed up, I get it, she is a bad person. I just dont get how someone can do that to another.

I am angry at her now. I know for my own sake I have to fogive her, and maybe understanding why she is that screwed up will help. She I just get mad for a while and get it out or find a way to forgive to move on?