James, what you are doing falls into the range of stalking. It is inappropriate no matter how you feel about her and you MUST STOP. If you continue to try to contact her in any way after this, you are quite possibly breaking the law and subjecting yourself to criminal charges.

If I were your ex-girlfriend, I would have long since gone to court and gotten a restraining order that would include ANY form of contact. Email, phone, texting, Facebook, ANYTHING.

You are also, in my opinion, out of line in posting this personal communication from her in this open-to-the-public space.

I realize you are in agony. I get it. It is time to man up and live with the world as it is. You can and WILL survive this and life WILL get better. This is a time to be endured.

I also realize this post will be very hard for you to read. I want to support you, and sometimes support feels uncomfortable.

ETA: Are you saying she is a member on here? Then it's time to stop trying to communicate with her in this venue, too.