That sucks Sam. Just wanted to write to say it sounds like we have similar thoughts on suicide in that you think about it, but you also think "There's no way I'd do it" for so many reasons (Mostly all the others that are effected). This means by my estimation you probably deal with depression similarly and with that I want to tell you it'll be better. Isn't it always better after a good sleep? Sure depression rarely leaves, but today is just crappy day and a new day always feels better even if it ends up being the same by the end of it. I realize now this is not terribly helpful just wanted to say I'm thinking about you enough to want to write.

With regards to your friend just be there when you feel you can be. I'm sure that's all she wants from you.