I'm not on any anti-depressants. When my Dr. started trying to find something to stop my migraines, he tried several anti-depressants, (the side effect of many anti-depressants is a lessening of migraines). They were given at very low doses, and all of them floored me. It got so bad that I had a big bike horn in the bedroom because i'd gotten too weak to yell out if I got into trouble. After two months of going through tons of anti-depressants, my Dr. concluded that my body does not do well with any of them, even at doses lower than therapeutic.

I kind of can't my Dr. about the fenphedrin. When you are treated at a pain clinic, not only do they check blood levels, but you have to sign a contract that says you will not take anything but what is perscribed by the pain clinic. When I first started having back problems, I went to my GP, and to even use a mild muscle relaxant, my GP's office had to call the pain clinic and ask if they could perscribe it. It sounds strict, but they are dealing with addictive drugs and need to keep track of it. Some people willl sell their pills or use too much. I gave my friend the medications, and she gives them to me at the appropriate time. I've never had a drug problem, and maybe its being paranoid, but not having them, I don't have to worry about it. There is a great deal of tolerance, but at least we spared me from any possibility of addiction.

Don't worry. I made two promises to my friend. First that I would not try to take my life, and secondly that I would never cut again. Thinking of breaking those promises is more upsetting than the depression and dark thoughts.

I'll stop taking the pills. If this is indeed a pre-aura, sometime soon I'll be hit with a breakthrough migraine. (Our of ten, my daily is about a 7 even with medication). Breakthroughs can be bad enough that I can't talk. If that happens, I'll be offline, possibly for days, do if I stop posting or answering, don't worry.

Sam2