****Trigger warning for talk of SUI*****



Just so you know.. I am safe right now.

T knows that my thoughts of suicide have been bit more prevelant in the last couple of weeks. In the past we have done contracts that I wouldn't do anything in between sessions. Now.. it is more than just thinking about it.

I do have a plan, but no plan to do anthing immediate. I want to talk to T about these, but everthing I find when I google this stuff says admitting to me t that I have plan means he would probably suggest I head to the ER.. I do admit that after failed attempts at reaching out (with no T response) I thought about going myself. I just don't want to be forced into it or anything. So, does a plan really make it more serious???

Again.. I am safe.